Thank God for Awesome Co-Workers

I have had a rough month or so on the job. I've been working my bum off, preparing for (and trying) a big case, and dealing with a lot of...difficult...clients along the way. I hope I haven't complained too much, but the Lunch Club (myself, Susanna, John and Dave) all do a lot of venting when we get out of the confines of the office. They always make me feel better about the rough situations, the tough customers, the absolute thanklessness (MOST of the time) of my job. Well, since it's been so hard lately, and since it's been several months since the spa saw my face, I was talking about making an appointment for a massage on Saturday, to get rid of all the built-up tension of the last month or so. Turns out, I didn't have to. My super-unbelievable co-workers made that appointment for me, so that, yesterday, all I had to do was show up with a tip for the masseuse. It was heavenly and SO SO needed, both physically AND mentally. I feel like a new woman.

So. Monday, it's back to the grindstone. But I can handle it now.

Now Reading...

The Best American Non-Required Reading of 2007. Awesome. Dave Eggers is a genius, for sure.

Pushing Away the Inevitable

I'm spending the rest of Saturday morning trying to put off what I don't want to do...WORK. I have a major trial coming up this week and I need to be working on things, but I am quite disgruntled that I have to spend my weekend, my THREE-DAY weekend, my EASTER weekend, that way. But it can't be helped. Sigh.

I've lost 30 pounds as of today. None of my clothes fit anymore. This should be a good thing, and I am glad, but I'm also broke right now. I can't afford to buy several new suits, new jeans, new EVERYTHING. I WILL get myself a new pair of jeans, however. That was my reward for reaching the 30-pound mark.

Things with Ricky are good. We should be planning our wedding, but I think we're really, honestly just going to call up our parents one day and go, "Hey, can you make it to City Hall next week? We wanna get hitched." Oh, that's another thing about losing weight...I need to get my rings re-sized before they fall off my fingers.

NOT Homeowners

Well, the fiance' and I sat down and had a LONG and PAINFUL discussion last night, the outcome of which is that we are NOT going to be making an offer on the house we like. In fact, we are not even going to continue looking for a house right now. When I sat down and figured up the finances (AGAIN...I feel like I do this every damn month), it appears that we are living beyond our means as it is. We have a lot of debt that we need to get under control before we even think about taking on a mortgage and the additional costs that come with owning a home. I'm sad, but SO relieved. I didn't realize how stressed out about this I'd been until we decided to put the brakes on it. I didn't want to disappoint him, he didn't want to disappoint me, neither one of us wants to give up the fantastic opportunity we have in the current buyers' market. But the bottom line is, we are not financially ready. And I think there is something in realizing that and acting appropriately. Maybe at this time next year we'll have paid off a credit card or two (at least that is my plan), and we'll be ready to get out of here and into a home of our own. At that point, we might even be able to afford more house, without some of our debt dragging us down. Although it's been fun looking, and I'm sad to see it end, I KNOW we've made the right decision. I wouldn't feel this relieved if it were otherwise.